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Hari ini jadi ujian? Pesannya masuk. Kubalas: jadi, nanti jam dua. Kau kuliah tak? Satu menit. Dua menit. Ruang percakapan tak terlihat ada kehidupan. Kututup ponselku. Melaju bersama ojek sepeda motor pada jam-jam makan siang memang bukan ide yang bagus. Pun memutuskan kuliah ekstensi yang hanya punya jadwal pada jam-jam itu juga bukan ide bagus. Kampusku tak jauh-jauh amat sebetulnya. Rasa enggan yang membuat jadi berlipat jarak tempuhnya. Kuliah ekstensi ini hanya sambilan saja. Utamanya tentu skripsi. Dan, ya, mana utama mana sambilan kadang hanya teori. Aku hampir tujuh tahun membenamkan diriku di kampus utama. Kalau ditanya Ibu atau Bapak, jawabanku antara: belum di-ACC dosen atau masih proses nulis. Nulis apa? Jika dipikir-pikir, tujuh tahun itu cukup lama. Apalagi bagi aku yang sering sibuk jadi freelancer ecek-ecek mentranskrip wawancara orang saja. Pesan balasan darinya masuk: males, nanti kutemani kamu saja. Ujian jam dua ini adalah...

Malam ini (21 April 2018) sengaja pengen posting di blog bukan dalam rangka hari Kartini. Karena sebetulnya aku gak sadar kalo hari ini adalah 21 April. Waktu liat timeline Instagram dan Facebook banjir soal Hari Kartini, akhirnya baru ngeh, deh. Yang mau kutulis ini juga gak bernada feminisme, sih. Because in some point, celebrating Kartini’s day and correlating it with feminism is overrated. Jadi, ya, cuma sekadar cerita ajalah, ya. I don’t think the beauty standard society gives us are obvious. I thought it was until I realized beauty standard has double sided perspectives. Maybe you are think the same way that beautiful is “normally” looks like someone who has fair skin, long hair and legs, symmetric nose and lips, curvy and huge boobs, and slender body. But, no. In a world where beauty is something eye candy, we will never ever get there—by all means—just with ourselves alone. And society will always have a way to repress and insult our confidence. You ...

Kadang ada masa di mana gue pengen nonton film-film yang ada di daftar “ best movies ever ”, atau yang macem pemenang film festival gitu. Tapi, ya, film-film itu biasanya bertema besar sosial-kultural dan berdasarkan peristiwa nyata. Alhasil, apa-apa yang terjadi di atas permukaan bumi ini bisa muncul dalam adegan-adegan di film itu. Dan pada beberapa hal, itu bukan kabar baik buat gue. Gue udah bukan tipikal penonton yang ga bisa ga baper liat adegan ga manusiawi, huhu. Jadi suatu malam gue coba nonton 12 Years of Slave , gue ga bisa bertahan lebih dari empat menit, haha. FYI, itu dari filmnya mulai—sampai, yha, empat menitan itu tadi— scene­ -nya tentang orang-orang budak di suatu persembunyian atau semacam tempat penyiksaaan(?). Gue bener-bener tutup laptop waktu tokoh utamanya digebukin gak kelar-kelar pake sebongkah kayu(?). Serius, DIGEBUKIN. Macem kasur. Serius. Who the hell on earth can stand with such an horrible scene like that? Ya minimal buat kaum kayak g...

Disclaimer: this post was written as my last assignment for the "Cross-Cultural Understanding" subject on my English Extension Course, Sanata Dharma University. Well, yeah, kind of "urik" because I just still can't find a time for writing a blog post. But speaking of which, I made an A grade for the subject. Wohoooo!! So, enjoy my piece. :) There are not many good movies I know. For a non-movie freak, all I know is only Forrest Gump and Radio . Both are perspective-changing movies and made me burst into cry. I already heard about The Pursuit of Happyness (PH), but I did not take it seriously before as a must-have watch movie. One thing a movie considered as a good one is when it doesn’t fulfil our expectations and gives us a totally different angle from an ordinary story. It is called twist. And PH has them both. A man named Chris lives in San Fransisco with his wife and a son. He is a salesman of a bone checker device which its weight equals wi...

This book reminds us of the gratitude of something we often took for granted: freedom. What is in your mind when it comes to “perfect marriage”? Is it a romantic and exclusive wedding party in Maldives? Or a couple who always look happy with their life? Jack Angel, a known lawyer finally found a true soulmate for himself. Grace is a lucky woman who is a single fighter to her own sister with down syndrome, seems to appear to completed Jack’s life. And they lived happily ever after. No. Wait. It is not difficult to see that Grace has it all. A gorgeous, rich and romantic husband with a life which she took for granted. But what people don’t know is something that could have happened behind closed doors. She could endure a painful life behind her warm smile. This book is showing something that actually happens near us. Marriage—no matter how perfect it looked—it is something privately hidden. Unfortunately, for some people, they can not run away from a bad, tor...